Fellow RP friends.

I was a very parent dependent kid growing up and that followed me throughout all my life. So even now, in my adult life, when I am on my own without my parents around me, in any situation I am looking for someone adult.

Meaning I am looking for a person who "knows what he/she is doing". For example in business, when someone tells me that something is better to do, only because they are more confident about the subject and look like they got their shit together - I feel safe with them.

And automatically, my mind is always looking for those "role models" to rely on and this way I realized I am not fully accepting the idea of me being an adult and having my own opinions about things, and if I feel something isn't right, it means I need to trust myself and not the other person who acts more confident saying that all is fine.

I hope I didn't confuse you guys. Any advice would be greatly appreciated, how to get out of this terrible mindset.