Looking for advice. Daddy issues girl

Ask this girl out 6 months ago she said yes I had no experience and no confidence so even though I found out she had daddy issues on the first hang out, I figured allowing a relationship but still only seeing her twice a week would be a good starting point to learn a little bit more.

I figured she would cheat and I was ready to move on as I met her when I was eating well healing from erectile dysfunction day 60, and meditating using the book the power of now by Eckhart toll.

Got her to reveal to me last Valentine’s Day that she was still fucking other dudes. Not a surprise as I suspected it via common sense and it was still worth all of the shit that I learned as a guy that doesn’t have any experience.

I fucked up with fapping a few times since I met her and couldn’t get it up any of the times we went behind a bush or building to fuck. So still a virgin

She shows up to my school, brings me lunch, I can do whatever I want to her every time she comes around. Unfortunately I still need time to re-associate arousal with real women and not porn. Her existence around me is completely hollow shallow and draining. It’s not that I have any feelings for her I just I’m on the Asperger spectrum and I am completely paranoid that I can’t get anyone else of Quality. I don’t know what happened to my abundance mentality. It’s just gone. I know how to get it back but I’m afraid to let go of her and have faith in my competence.

She was raped by her stepfather and she’s an ex druggie, and one of her exes regularly ran his friends through her las a gangbang train.

She was a great learning experience for a complete noob like me unsure of himself but now I’m paralyzed at the idea that I’m too much of a bitch to be good enough for the next step. Letting my dick reboot, kicking her out of my life, or do I keep her around until I’m healed, fuck her and leave.

What do you guys think?