Okay guys dont judge me too much.

So my exgf dump me after 1.5 year relationship. After summer break first 2 weeks was nice. But after that 3 months of me being all nice really and she just started verbaly and physicaly abusing me. P.S I am 21, she is 30 years old, and she has alopecia this sickness where she doesnt really have hair. So what happened was she just wouldnt really talk to me and abuse me and wouldnt tell her problem and said "she is depressed" as far as I know because of her alopecia, so what happened was I stopped communicating because I tried everything just to see her. She didnt really talk to me until later on she hitting me up with texts and starting to talk again. Of course I got mad and said how she dare to even talk to me after all that abuse, said to her some fucked up shit and she started acting like a victim. She apologized and said that it was because of her inner problems. Honestly I feel like she tried to get with other dude but it didnt work out but like part of me is telling me she really was depressed about her illness. Now she is ignoring me and im spamming the hell out of her like a simp. Guys please help, I just want some closure.