So... im soon 22 (live in germany) and made literally nothing. I ended school, started to get a good degree (media) - but left this school at the last year (dumbest decision ever, but i didnt want to work in that category anymore).

I once had a gaming related youtube channel. I earned abot 10.000€ with it. That was like 6 years ago. I have hard working parents and since im a kid i wish i could help them somehow. They are really loving parents. So i gave them all that money in that 9 months. I dont regret it morally.

Then i had another business doing websites. Somehow (even if i was polite and stuff like that...) all the people didnt want to work with me. Im not even about customers. Im about other business owners.

I met them in person, talked to them without being a freak or something like that and still they avoided me. I guess im just not made for being a business owner. I dont know...

I was chasing girls, had two girlfriends and became very calm and lazy with them. Watching netflix 24/7 and having sex. The last Relationship was one year ago. I was not mad or sad that we broke up. Im sad and laying in my bad around 300 days (sometimes hitting the gym if i have energy or playing video games) now, because i JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE.

I have mental issues when it comes to work. At the one hand i dont want to work for someone, because i know how the system works. I know its the modern slavery and i will stuck there for a long time if i start playing their game. Most of the times i apply to a random job (Supermarket, Fastfoods etc.) and quit them after like a week, because it just hurts to stay there and work for that little money. If i´d be 16 it would be okay, but i need to find a way making a lot money.

Some of my friends/people i know at my age (21/22) have a car, started to pay for their house or just have A LOT money on the side.

But on the other hand i have no chance of escaping that. Every business i started failed. I wasted my time with chasing girls / netflix / social media / clowning around.

I dont know what to do, i have no interests in nothing. I dream about the life as a rapper. Making my money that way and having a chill life, but that is a dream which i think will never become true. Sad...

So thats the facts: Im 22, dont know what to do with my life now, dont know if i should start a business again, dont know if i should chase my dreams (the chance is very small), NO DRIVING LICENSE, NO CAR, ZERO (0,00€) on my Bank Account.

Im a straight loser. The only advantage i have is that i avoid females like hell now. I want to focus on one thing, but i cant get my mind right now and i feel like im too old... even tho im just 21 right now...

I appreciate every tip. Hopefully i can get out of this dirty hole...