We were a pretty young relationship but she convinced me we would be together forever. I'm not so stupid to know that's realistic, so I didn't let feelings catch but when you go through so many 1sts with a woman it's pretty hard to not fall in love.

She had a very damaged past which I helped her through the whole way. She dated me even though I dropped out and had all the red flags in the world. She helped me improve my relationship with my family and bring me the highest of highs. I helped her through her past abusive relationship and she was sexually assaulted twice by people she thought could be trusted. She indulged in my hobbies and enjoyed them. She was from heaven, we talked about future kids even though we were in Highschool and joked about having them now. We were both conservative so we didn't have any libtard habits and had high morals and values. First girl I ever introduced to my family. There were always gonna be problems in a relationship since we are both not perfect, but a certain problem we encountered she just didn't feel like helping me through. I've never had a flush of suicidal thoughts and anguish hit my brain at once. I lurked this subreddit often but I believed I had a unicorn. I didnt. Im still realizing that I have to GMOW Although what I do have finalized in my brain is that I'm never dating another woman again.