Well i just really need to spit it out.. Cuz i struggle so much and NO ONE understands. Im 22 years old man, and i find it extremely hard to date women. im not ugly (would rate myself as a 7/10), and i keep failing with women since when i remember myself. Yes i am a virgin. I was a shy kid, but i did soooo much to change - i made some serious moves in my life - one of them was joining the army in my country. Ive got so far there that i ended up commanding over a whole crew of about 10-12 soldiers (think how much confidence you need to handle this shit - i really did work on myself and have changed).. Ive also started pickup at a young age, around 16, at about 18 i realized i hate this shit of pickup. My philosophy for meeting women is that i want to be myself, and to be loved for who i am. no games, no shit.. i really belive that pua make science out of nothing, and overthink to much. And i decided that this isn't the lifestyle i wish for myself. Im just approaching women in a clear and direct way.. thats it.. not making it a big deal. Altough i made dozens of approaches, although i had been in alot of dates. Altough i got rejected thousands of times.. I still can't seem to break this barrier in my life. This scenario happens too much: i go to a date, i enjoy, i feel like "this time it clicked", and feel like the girl is having fun.. im sure its gonna work.. but then.. when i try to set up for another fuckin date - the girl rejects me or dissapears.. EVERYFUCKINTIME

Now im asking myself, what the fuck is wrong? Im an okay looking guy, and i had fun with her. so why she doesn't feel the same?! I really can't figure the answer. I don't know what i not doing okay.

So i thought about just giving up the whole business for a while, maybe learn to accept myself, become a better salesmen (thats my job now), quit porn and then masturbation for good, and just detach myself and how i feel about myself from anything that isn't me. I just say, well maybe if its so damn hard it isn't fuckin worth it - and maybe I'll just live my life on my own. Im afraid that ill never make it and that i will grow old and be lonely, that i won't have kids, that i will never be loved by a woman..

Would be really fuckin appreciate anyone who read it and share his thoughts about that. Thanks guys, peace :)