Sorry guys. Still with the girl. She's pretty cool, but has the usual female issues, not making sense at times, hypocritical at times. After observing many females it seems like All of them have this issue. Thus the only way for me, as I see it, is to either be alone or choose one with the least amount of crazy levels in her blood. Been through a few, and she definitely has the lowest amounts of my previous attempts. Giving her a few more chances, but I just need to keep reminding myself that my mental and emotional wellbeing is more important.. Help yourself before you can help or invest in others. I've declared a mini break for now. And she's logical enough to understand. I've spent 2 years as a beta, and I believe I am becoming slowly more and more redpilled.

I'm sorry for the rant. No one has to like this. No one has to reply. I just needed a place to write this other than my diary, as I feel that at least the community here, despite not being physical, is real and embracing of fellow men.

I have been blue pilled my entire life, grew up with no brothers and only sisters.

Love you guys.