I'm almost 25, never had a gf really. Gotten close to girls many times, and usually it ends badly. They either just abandon you, or try to use you in some way. Almost every person that I know in a relationship where I live, is not happy.

I've lived with severe ocd, depression and anxiety most of my life but more so since I had entered my teens. Its been hard, and I've always felt the need for having a significant other, and my interactions with women make it worse.

I have people tell me that I will die without sex, others tell me it doesnt make a difference. For me, I wouldnt know. Where I live in canada, even the ugliest women can get plenty of beta males to fuck, but it seems like its almost impossible for the average joe, unless they are rich or of high social status.

I've seen how my own mother grew up spoiled and spilled that onto my dad, and how he put up with her for 25 years before getting divorced. With most women, thats what it seems like. They only are attracted to you from the beginning if you have money or looks, and after they settle in, they are never happy. Same thing happened with my sister.