PLEASE READ, and give me your deep insights.

So for the past two months I had been talking to this girl, a 9/10. I’m not gonna describe her physically but needless to say she is a fucking stallion and anyone who meets her instantly falls in love with her body. Anyway, I have looks, not much money, and a whole lot of status, with respect to where we (her and I) are currently at. With respect to you gentlemen and the world at large however, I am but a subatomic particle in a large pond.

We started getting real close and she told me she loved me, randomly out of the blue. And you know what? I felt as though I loved her too. Throughout our engagements I noticed several red flags. Out of respect for her I wont disclose any of it since this is not a throwaway account. But needless to say, there were many red flags. Nevertheless we continued talking until one day she told me she was going to meet with her ex to get him off her case, since he had been pestering her and her mom for closure. They ended things on bad terms.

On the surface, I took a firm stance and outright condemned their meeting, as I am no idiot, I know what he wants from her. But, to be completely honest, the major part of me was okay with their meeting since we still weren’t dating, and if I caught even a whiff of infidelity down the line I would easily and hastily ghost her. Which would be great for me since that meant I could continue uninhibited.

But gentlemen, this is what I have a problem with. I took this as an opportunity to manufacture drama and pretend as though I had a massive problem with their meeting. Rather than explain to her my reasons for this, I immediately ghosted her. I did this with the full intention of sabotaging our possible relationship, and effectively making her hate me to the point of not wanting anything to do with me in the future. Essentially I took the easy way out, blamed the situation on her, acted irrationally and left.

The reasons for why I did this are simple:

  1. I need to secure my future, without a woman hindering my success down the line, through a relationship.

  2. I have several women at my disposal to fuck, and if I would’ve entered into a relationship I would certainly have dropped them all. Which I do not think I am ready to do just yet.

  3. If we entered into a relationship sooner or later our honeymoon phase would have worn off and we would’ve become complacent with each other. This could lead to some bad situations which could affect my performance in my ultimate endeavor.

But part of me thinks I should have just been honest with her and told her that I wanted to be alone. However, I am fearful that If I would’ve taken that specific route I, in a moment of weakness, would’ve been tempted to reach out to her when I needed something with a little more emotion, and due to our connection being stable I would’ve succeeded in that endeavor. Which would enrich my heart but not my wallet. But there’s also the possibility I would’ve not done that.

As a result of this I have hurt her, and she has said some things to me which have hurt me because I think I should’ve just been honest. But I know the main tactic of females when it comes to arguing is to play the victim card in hopes of rallying support. So her words don’t cut as deep as they would a blue-pilled cuck.

How should I have handled this situation in a manner more in line with respect?