16 year old first year red pilling kid calling in

This weekend I lived, better than having another predictable boring one

What happens, well of course of all hormone filled teenage males, it starts off with a girl

Friday after school I bring the balls to ask my oneitis girl out, (I need you to believe me that this girl is unique, not perfect girl, but defiantly unique) I ask her what she is doing this weekend, sounds busy, but there is a dance tomorrow she said she was going to, so i took it as a neutral, not accepted nor rejected

My parents are gone this weekend, so I'm free to do shit, since I am currently for a bad grade

Now most weekends like this where parents are gone I sit home and play videogames, but I felt it inside me to go out of my comfort zone

I genuinely wanted to try weed, no peer pressure, so I tag along with my good friend and go with his friends that have weed

We go to a parking lot and get high, and my emotions also get high

I start really wanting to get the oneitis, so I snapchat her pics of how i got "good feelings for her"

Later i have my shirt off and burning clothes from my car and my friends are just having fun

Then Reality hits

Cop car pulls up, cop comes up saying he received a complaint, and he smells marijuana

Im nervous as shit, first time smoking and first time being pulled over by a cop, holy shit

Thankfully, cop lets us go, saying this is average of kids are age, makes sure there are no drugs left, and makes us leave the parking lot

Afterwards I have 2 of those friends come over to my house for pizza and they rally me to act how I truly feel for oneitis (we are fully sober at this point) and I feel the energy to do it Saturday night, night of the dance

Come Saturday night I'm ready to show oneitis a good time

During the dance I talk talk to her , TRY to dance with her, and asking deep questions

Then reality hits

She says she doesnt feel the same way I feel for her as she does to me, and says your still a cool friends

Note this is me reading sidebar, no more mr. Niceguy, how to talk to women, etc.

I'm utterly shoked, my red pill values have gotten me pretty far in 2017

I joined a sport, got rid of shit friends, started lifting, became a more living person

This is where i learn reality hits hard, even when you think I had control of my life, I do but not in aspects I perfectly dream up, like a relationship with a oneitis

That being said, i'm glad i lived that weekend and learned shit