paradigm shift after a break down

Ive had a serious paradigm shift after a break down yesterday and it was probably one of the best things that could have happened to me.

Background USMC vet and a history of sexual abuse growing up. I had a serious case of onitis to the point where i couldn't control my emotions and felt crazy, everything i did felt like i had no control every decision i made was emotional. I wasn't so much suicidal but i didn't want to live. I've been hearing more and more about stoicism so i started doing research.

What I learned Ive created an idea of who im supposed to be that isnt true to my core. Im not authentic im constantly acting like someone else i think i should be. I create the emotions that dictate how i perceive the world and if i let the world dictate my emotions im going to be miserable. Ive come to the conclusion that being alpha is simply trusting yourself and living an authentic life that suits you. Most importantly you have to love yourself unconditional no one else is going to do that. The only way to do that is to constantly fight and argue every negative emotion that comes through into something good.

Im not sure if this post will get deleted but id like to see more people discussing this kind of stuff i think its the key to happiness. edit- i dont believe ive figured anything out but i think its getting me on the right path if anyone has experienced something like this please give me your advice. I dont want to live a miserable and depressed life and i dont want to fill that void with women i want to find happiness i believe women will be a by product of living a life of control.

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The moment you use the word "conspiracy" it's code for emotionally programmed. ("pay no attention... go astray")

The Blue Pill mythology creates a limited ability to access evidence.

All evidence outside the "approved" Blue Pill bandwidth is considered "occult" and "hidden" from view.

The Red Pill exposes the hidden.

So you are contradictory... the Red Pill means exposing the hidden... exposing the crimes.

Crimes have always existed and to create a crime there are multiple members and they work together ("conspire") to pull off their crimes.

I was involved in several criminal type investigations as a computer guy and I know from direct personal experience that crimes occur and people do work in teams to pull them off.

Are you possibly being a bit naive in your approach?

The Red Pill exposes the crimes women do... why not expose all other crimes?

There is no shortage of crimes these days as things are very corrupt.

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Noted! I have been on the other side of this esoteric pseudoscience, meaning mental brakedown of a sort when I was unable to get these two worlds to work together so I am aware of dangers involved.

I am currently in my last week of Veterinary medicine college classes so my critical thinking regarding "lets let realz be realz and fiction fiction" must be on point at all times or I could not do this line of work.

That being said I still see many benifits of Passios mindset. Maybe I would have fought harder for those cows that I had to cut horns off last week. There are other, more humane methods I was aware of at the time that would solve the problem easier and with less stress to animal but I was scared to act on it because I could have potentially loose the status I have with my professor and his asistant.

Everything you said is on point, and I do appreciate it! What I am looking for is not fantasy for fantasy trade but breaking old walked in ways, when there is possible better alternative, by any means necessary. I think these kind of debates are sorely needed in this world we live in.

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I still see many benifits of Passios mindset.

Being open minded is not a negative trait. Being uncritically accepting of everything that is "open minded" definitely is, especially when it can be overturned by asking for ANY serious proof or pointing out simple logical flaws.

I think these kind of debates are sorely needed in this world we live in.

Yes, they are. With people who are actually willing to debate the new idea. This is how part of science is done. "This is the new idea, this is the evidence and reasoning behind it." Then others pick it apart and see if it holds or not.

You will find that there is no "debate" with NRS when you have a contrary opinion to his. He will just post more and more of his usual vague stuff, provide no evidence for his claims ("boring", "mundane", "you should do it yourself"), respect no evidence from you (peer reviewed studies, common historical knowledge).

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I did not expect to get this kind of content from trp at all. I think I had preconsived notions about you guys as enclosed in a fully left brain activity..(which may as well be true for most)..as I can now verbalise this in this way...before I used other methods of expressing this disbalance I percived in trp but only to closest of friends. I did understand where it was comming from though...

I thought it would not be well recived here and was frankly scared to even try asking questions like: what about Jacque Frescos work guys? What do you think about his idea of resource based economy? What about fucked up state the world is in and shit?

I felt somehow that "these guys" should be able to see this. I mean they made such a change in their life, they should be able to think outside of the any box, outside of "basic programming" and discuss this.... Than I saw all the "money is power and git a job or two if needed" and such talks, and while I saw the importance and truth in these mindsets in many levels, it also kind of held me an arms length away from getting fully red. While I understood the logics of game and selfimprovement, tried it and proven it to myself for myself, I still had this issue of thinking: they have too much yang energy(male energy, left brain) and I am searching for balance of yin and yang. This evolved into: maybe this is not the place to ask this kind of questions or maybe the time is not right yet... Besides I am prolly not right about it anyways and shoud just get my shit together and start lifting more regularry...

Did not expect this at all. I have a lot of thinking to do now. This changes all kinds of shit for me.

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You might study this too:

http://gnosticteachings.org/courses/alphabet-of-kabbalah/723-vav.html

The Sephirot is a sort of Rubik's Cube™ of how the mind functions. It develops the ideas of the Hermetic Principles and Natural Law to a more refined state.

The Left Hand Path in Kabbalah, Freemasonry and Tarot represents the feminine aspect of manipulation and is thought of as "fluid".
The Right Hand Path is the masculine and thought of as "rigid". The rules of Natural Law are defined by rigid constructs.
It's the Middle Path that unifies the "fluid" and the "rigid".

The man of wisdom can comprehend the fluid and the rigid at the same time.

It's a lot like the masculine and feminine brain, but more in depth than Mark Passio could get into in his "brief" 3.5 hour seminar.

Mark Passio had to radically condense the ideas to cram it into such a small time period.

Title	paradigm shift after a break down
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Date	May 21, 2017 4:04 PM UTC (9 years ago)
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