I’ve done another post like this but I’m rationalizing why mgtow is actually really good outside of just being better than the plantation. I’m a good looking enough where I can attract girls initially but fucking hate Pursuing pussy as it’s a such a waste of time and money and you can’t be genuine. So I’m basically celibate since being serially cheated on and treated like shit by my “BPD” ex in college. Sex is great in of itself but I remember my middle school and high school days when I couldn’t get shit (Barely madeout) and still had a lot of fun and loved pursuing my hobbies. Part of that was I always thought the right girl would come eventually, but I don’t have that anymore. I feel bad not being able to get pussy easily and feel like I’m missing out but you really don’t need it to be happy as evidenced by the fact I once was able to easily be happy even with false hope. The greatest reason I feel bad about my monkish life is I feel shame about missing out and something is lesser of me. It also isolates me from my fellow men. The constant pandering to women they don’t even have want to fuck, let alone actually fucking makes me not want to hang with them, even if they’re otherwise cool dudes. Totally changes how they act, feel, and think even if women aren’t around. Overcoming shame from society and thinking sex is the ultimate pursuit and validation is the only thing keeping me from being happy and fulfilled. Realizing this makes me feel better. The shame is the only thing to be overcome. Rationally, why is 10-30 minutes of pleasure needed for happiness? Why is it worth orchestrating your whole life around? It’s not and I don’t really need it. I just have been programmed to think I do. I can always get escorts for $100 and save so much time, money, and mental energy. It’d be nice to have a legit partner, but it ain’t gonna happen. I can’t point to one marriage where it seems worth it. So even if I know people in good relationships now (few), the wheels will come off before or after marriage and, even if it’s good now, you’re still wasting so much time and money. If these same girls were men, I wouldn’t want to hang out with them. How can you have the power of pus and still be failing life and miserable? It’s the gift of an easy life, if you choose, and you still fail?! Fucking crazy. I’m drunk and chewing so I’ve rambled a bit but I hope this makes sense haha.