Been majorly addicted to marijuana for 12 years and I just keep going from my narcissist dads house or to my narcissist moms house back and forth.

Tired several times over months of training the past 12 years to "walk on" to a low level pro hockey team but never got much support; and with the male brain not done maturing till 25, I couldn't tell until now looking back I was being sabotaged.

Tried twice more to drum it up for hockey 27, then at 31 and they pretty much just "got me" again. They kinda wait till I'm weak, over training plus work, or doing very well then they "attack" .

This same pattern happens even if hockey isn't my goal. If I'm just trying to workout and get healthier, they attack too. So I've switched my goals before to just work hard at a job and save. They attack then too.

Now 32 I feels it's my only chance is to be homeless.