I want to talk about this paradox I’m recognizing lately. It’s kind of fucked up we do this as humans but I’m trying to accept and harness it.

For example, I have many female friends and acquaintances (Or shall I just say acquaintances). More often than not they become attracted to me and like me. When this happens somehow I have no problem treating them like dirt. I don’t care if I respond to them, I don’t care what they think about my opinions, I don’t care what the outcome is. Usually I end up fucking them too. It’s non intentional but I see how they get desperate for my validation. They want to be cool or they just plain want attention. I usually just get turned off by their behavior

But what’s hard for me is when I fall for the idea of a woman and end up liking her. It’s impossible to intentionally be chad. Cuz I now care about the outcome and essentially become emotionally compromised. I end up over-thinking and becoming “non-chad” for lack of a better phrase. Whenever I start to feel this way I become vulnerable and can no longer carry out the mission with the same tact. It’s hard to deny feelings for a woman too. And even harder to feign contempt or try to objectify.

I wish I could say that one day I’ll meet a woman where no games exist. Or where I didn’t have to wonder if I was putting in too much. The fact is that life is a game and you have to have strategy and tactics. I am finding a way to be true to myself while also not taking my feelings for women seriously. I have to adapt it into my game and understand that any time given is too much.

My point is... only the chads shall chad.

Cheers to those going their own way and to those who figuring out what that means.