I just wanted to write a little introduction as my first post, just tired of having my masculinity bashed etc,

This first bit sounds like a white knight but its important to get some context as to how id turned my back on my own gender from an early age, i promise im not a white knight and am against feminism now just keep reading, i sound like a right pu**y during some of this for giving my power away to women lol :

I grew up with a step father that was emotionally abusive to my mother, I grew up wanting to protect her from this nasty man that seemed to delight in being controlling, degrading etc.
Id see his eyes light up when he would degrade her. She met him after a marriage where my biological father died through medical negligence following an operation. We got a settlement. My step dad seems to seek out vulnerable women who he can be abusive to.

So growing up I had no good masculine models, I just knew I wanted to be nothing like my step dad, I was like this white knight who was drawn to women who I felt needed protecting...broken women basically. My mother would attack my masculinity and say your being like your father when i was a teenager, there were no positive male role models in my life. I was very naïve about female behaviour in the real world and hadn't dealt with women outside of my mum and sister at this point.

I just want to share some examples of things that have changed my perception of women from a naive white knight one that i had as a child to one where im turning my back on feminism and a culture that celebrates sluts as some kind of model for female empowerment.

I was on the train when I was 15 and these two girls started being very flirty, I ignored them. One of them said “he must be gay”.

I went through my early 20's doing well with women, I used to go clubbing, its easy when you have enough charm and confidence to pickup women. I had the right male entourage that helped me come out of my shell. I think around that time I had problems with depression...i remember this pretty girl talking to me once and I mostly ignored her, I looked at my beer thinking “you are more reliable, you will never leave me” ...pretty dark thoughts.

Its around this time in my early 20's (2005) I encountered my first “feminist” , she had been sexually abused by her father growing up. I was talking to her and I happened to mention a story from the week before how I had come to the aid of a girl who was very drunk and two guys sensing her vulnerability were shadowing her. I stared them down and they backed off (white knight alert lol), I said to her “are you ok?” she said yeah and started kissing me. Eventually she tried to get me to go in a taxi back to hers, I decided not to as my bank account was getting low and id promised myself I wouldn't spend any more money. Its the first time I think id turned down a woman...I think back then it was pretty rare for a guy to do that.

I mention this story because when I told the “feminist” this story (back in 2005) she told me if I had gone home with the girl it would have been rape, I argued with her saying she clearly wanted it as she had invited me into the taxi going back to hers and started kissing me. The argument got very heated and she pretty much accused me of being a rapist and of being a male pig ...feminists dont like it when you calmly disagree with them using logic. She then got aggressive and was waving her long nails near my eyes like she might tear my eyes out. Im pretty big and laughed at the attempt of this small woman to intimidate me. I waved my hands near her in the same way she had done to me and her face said it all, she made a face like I was an abusive male or something. She kicked me out of her and my friends house (who was her bf). Anyway that was my first experience of encountering/arguing with a “feminist” and of someone saying I could of potentially been a rapist when I thought it was fine.
A few years later I was at work and a female manager where I worked was being overly friendly, I ignored it as I wasnt interested in her. I thought nothing of it until she slapped me on the ass. Growing up I was never told a woman can sexually harass a man. I felt like as a man I should of enjoyed being touched by a woman like that, but I didn't, I felt violated. I didn't know what to do so I let it go. These unwanted sexual advances didnt stop there, there was several people outside of work and in front of one of her family members she said “i want to cover you in chocolate sauce and lick it all off” I shrugged my shoulders and said to her family member “women!”. I find it very unattractive when women act like the hunters and I am prey, I feel like ive been made a hunter by nature and women want to punish men for that.

4 years later...

I had my first serious relationship while at university, it started very nice and we fell deeply in love for each other, I developed depression and pushed her away emotionally, our relationship never recovered I think after that. Eventually she became verbally and physically abusive. We would play fight or wrestle and she would take it too far, she once kicked me in the spine so hard I couldn't move for a few seconds. She would claw at my hands so hard she drew blood. She kneed me in the jaw once, I was concussed for several seconds. I remember once looking at blood she'd drawn on my hands and felt paralysed in how to react, id never dealt with an abusive woman before, id been mostly on the side of protecting women, i thought they were the good guys lol. After enough abuse I started to believe I needed to put up with how she treated me to keep being loved. Pathetic I know, but this is the first girl I ever fell in love with and my first serious relationship. First girl id really given my heart to you know. I was young and naive.
Before this relationship I hadnt encountered women withholding sex and giving it as reward/punishment for doing chores etc.
The real warning sign was when she pulled a knife on me during an argument. I went to the police, they didn't give a c*ap, gave me no support and acted like it happened everyday and was unimportant.
When we started sleeping in different rooms she started making threats “one night im going to cut your balls off in your sleep” she said this repeatedly about 6 times over 2 weeks. I remember thinking I dont want to hurt her I love her. I shake my head at this now like im sure you all do, now id press charges and get a restraining order and if that didnt work knock her out lol

Eventually she stopped threatening me as I gave in to hatred...i asked her why she stopped threatening me and she said she started to worry what I was going to do to her because of the looks I was giving her.
I used to think it was wrong to hit a woman but that was before I could see it had stopped me from defending myself when it would have been the only rational thing to do. Id let society brainwash me into thinking that “you can never raise your fists to a woman” cause it made you a monster. If society wouldn't let me defend myself then society wasn't on my side. I should of broke her jaw and left for all the abuse physical and psychological. I didn't use my vastly superior strength and size to defend myself. I love the videos on youtube where a woman hits a man and the man hits her back, they are so freeing and liberating lol. (My ex had been sexually abused by her uncle as a child repeatedly as a side note).
After all that we broke up but shared the apartment, during this point she once said to me “shall we have sex for old times sake” and I said no my feelings need to recover...this is the first woman I ever loved and loved me back remember. She responded “you are such a woman”. Am I really expected to want sex whenever a woman offers it? With a woman who threatened to cut my balls off in my sleep? I used to think this but I dont anymore.

Since then ive on rare ocassion wrestled with thoughts of hatred for women but am still attracted to them and watch porn. I think the problem with the state of womanhood in the younger generation is now that getting a woman to get her tits out is easy especially online. The sad thing is I think to a lot of women it means nothing, sometimes its just to get attention and see the reaction they can get from men. Maybe instagram, facebook, selfies and the likes culture and the way a lot of thirsty men put women on pedestals has taught them this? Society has taught them its acceptable to flirt with men to get attention, to get a free drink, to manipulate them. Ive heard of women who date to get free meals etc, the sad thing is when men are thirsty they validate and reinforce this female behaviour by being led around by pu**y.
Ive dealt with feminists online recently (2019) I was accused of mansplaining for the first time in my life when I was calmly explaining my points of view using logic. This included if a woman goes naked in the street and gets raped her actions contributed to her getting raped and she could of avoided this outcome. Apparently this is “victim blaming” then I said if someone leaves their house unlocked and goes out and gets robed whose fault is it? They said I was comparing a woman to an inanimate object and I was sexist. The full answer is there are robbers out there but you can make yourself more or less vulnerable to them by taking precautions, I then said to them why do you lock your car if you believe its entirely the robbers fault when you get robbed? They refused to answer. The feminists threatened to put my comments on a feminist page called mansplain me harder daddy or something. I calmly replied that dismissing my arguments because of whats between my legs was sexist and that before feminism only men could be sexist but post feminism women do it too. They went furious at this point lol. Blaming the patriarchy and acting like they were all victims of my behaviour despite me being only one and about 4-5 people arguing against me. I was respectful, they were not, yet they were the victims.

I just think women need to be taught that the more men chase you, the more men you've had in bed, the more attention you get for having your tits out doesn't define your value or how attractive you are. Ive seen women who've been with 30+ men who think they are gods gift to men just cause they can spread their legs and enjoy sex. Ive seen one obese woman with missing teeth who thought she was amazing because lots of men kept messaging her for sex on tinder. Ive met several women who have had 20-40 partners and they have been ruined emotionally. One of them thought when men had sex with her she was loved and was beautiful. I think women did need to be liberated sexually but now sluts are being seen as role models and as female empowerment. My sister works in london in a high paying job, earns more than her bf, thats female empowerment not these slut walks. Facebook, instagram, Tinder, the likes culture have all made women think they are on a pedestal and should be worshipped. I think the dating world has turned gynocentric.

The other day a female who told me she was out of my league tried to tell me my value on the dating market to women and who was out of my league, I refuse to let my value as a man be dictated by what women want to be with me, based on job, money, physique etc. Its funny how my stance on this is like feminists who refuse to let men tell them their value based on looks etc but somehow I can bet women will say im being misogynistic for saying i define my value not them.

Just tired of all the man bashing ive heard since growing up and the feminists who deny that's whats happened to feminism. We see it ladies...we've probably all experienced male bashing. Women dont understand how our identities are under attack. I dont want to hate women, i like hanging out with them but i certainly dont want to trust them with my heart anymore especially not the sluts...

Just got burned by another slut who had been with 30 men and described herself as dead inside...wtf