Ok- How Many of us have the amazing husband and douchey boyfriend?

My boyfriend is an elitist, financially successful-type of douche (please excuse the term, I just can’t find a fitting alternative.) I know it- he may know it. My husband knows it. Yet, I can’t seem to shake him. Broke up. Returned after year and a couple conversions. Walked away- missed and texted. How many people out there do the same thing? It sucks. I for some god awful reason love him, and that was part of the lessons acknowledged to even get here posting. Now I’m trying to figure out what in me keeps letting this be ok and how to weasel it out to finally, healthily get out?

Also, I just want to know I’m not alone here. I feel kinda like an idiot and just don’t want to be the only one who gets in these messed places.

Thanks for any and all the help. This group has been a life saver in some ways ❤️