Bought a house, wife lost her job a month after, then started cheating.

Shortly a month after buying our house, my wife lost her job. She has been out of a job for 5 weeks. My best friend (we work together too) uses Tinder. By some phenomenal chance, he discovered her on it as well. He took a phone-shot of her picture and showed it to me. I couldn't believe it. It had our new furniture in the background of her selfie. I never snooped through her phone in the 3 years we've been together, but I had just cause. I got into her phone in the middle of the night and discovered that she's been with 4 different guys dating back only 2 weeks of her being unemployed. She's been disguising their names under girls names in her text messages.

I'm so pissed off I can't eat, sleep, nothing. I've been working 6 days a week, 10 hour shifts, I even contemplated getting a second job to make sure money was ok until she got a new job. Now I doubt she was ever even looking. She had been using her unemployment as a way to cheat on me while I worked my freaking ass off. She has been having sex in OUR house because one day after work I noticed the toilet seat was up and I ALWAYS put it down after using the toilet. So I know she has brought these men over to our house. Had sex in our bed.

I can't even go home. Its been about 13 hours since I found out and I'm filled with so much hurt and anger I want to puke. I don't know how to get myself out of this situation without completely destroying everything I've been trying to build for us. I want to beat the shit out of her. I want to leave her, I want to commit suicide on my front lawn. My life is a fucking lie and everything I've worked forward to is a fucking sham.

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