"Feeling dirty after getting a Massage"

This is possibly nsfw, I don't know how to tag it us such though... Anyway, I am a virgin and I have no clue on what to do with my body. I really wanted to learn more about my body, so I booked a professional to give me Yoni massage.

I was under the impression that it really was just a massage, with stimulation -- no penetration whatsoever. So the therapist came, I told him it was my first time getting that type of massage and that I was a virgin. He gave me a really nice body massage during the first hour, He then started touching me down there, which was a part of the massage (at this point I am still comfortable). He then asked me to turn around, which I did. This is where things got weird... (please note that I have my eyes closed the entire time cause I was relaxed with the massage) He started sucking on my breasts, and then he kissed me. The sensation on my chest was something new, so I didnt stop him. I was feeling tingly all over, he took my hand and placed it on his prick. After a few minutes, he then grabbed my hips and he suddenly started pushing himself inside of me. It was painful, so I screamed and told him No. He told me to relax as he won't be going all the way. Everything was happening so fast, he moved my legs and he was suddenly moving in and out. As far as I could feel he really didnt go all the way, but it was so painful. He stopped pushing and started rubbing me with his prick, asked me if I had an orgasm yet , I said no - he continued until he got tired and just lay beside me. He started dressing up and thanked me, he told me he couldnt believe his luck, that he was servicing a young virgin. He told me that it was weird I was still a virgin as he found me beautiful, and that my body is to die for -- that he wanted to see me again and he'll make me orgasm next time.

He thanked me again. And I just feel dirty, I feel like I was the one servicing him. Sorry for the long post, i just wanted to get it off my chest... I just feel used, and dirty. I 'm also scared, what if I get pregnant with what he did, there's a chance right? Even if he didnt go all the way.