First of all, let me start this post by saying that I’m ugly. I was in an accident when I was a kid, and I got horribly disfigured.

Thanks to this I had to rely on social skills and stuff like that to get women. Over the years I’ve slept with more of them than I can count on my fingers, toes, arms, legs and so on.. you get the point. I quickly learned that women are easy to get, all you have to do is offer them something that their boyfriends don’t. Or if they’re single - just tell them what they want to hear and give them the attention they crave for. Looks has nothing to do with sex, girls just wanna feel wanted most of the time.

Anyways, after sleeping around for a couple of years I really learned to understand women, and the more I understood them - the more I realized how dangerous they are. They can not be trusted. Period.

Suddenly an urge for having kids came along, and I spent my twenties trying to find a girl to have kids with. I had an existential crisis and realized that I wanted to leave something behind, because otherwise everything I achieved in life would be pointless. By this time I was a drug addict, and spent most of my days in isolation.

Fast forward a couple of years and I finally got my life on track again. I got my drivers license back, got a job and quit doing drugs. My life was peaceful and quiet. Now was the time to find someone to share my life with, but it wasn’t easy since I never left my apartment aside from going to work.

One day a colleague wanted me to talk to his drug addicted sister, so I did. We met and talked, exchanged phone numbers and hung out in the evenings. We started fucking after a week, and one year and eight days after meeting her she gave birth to the most beautiful girl in the world. To prove a point (that you should never trust anyone 100%) I asked for a paternity test. She took offense and assured me that she had not been with anyone else, but she would take the test for my sake. I already knew that it was my kid because she looks exactly like me, and the test said that I was the father.

Six months later a ‘friend’ called me to let me know that he fucked my girlfriend in a stairwell while we were together. No surprise there, all women are like that. Then I realized that my girlfriend wasn’t mad at me because I didn’t trust her and wanted a paternity test - she was mad because she knew I was right even without knowing it at the time.

I tried to stay together with her for my daughters sake, but after a while I started sleeping on the couch and some days I couldn’t even look at her. I didn’t love her anymore and was secretly despising her.

We held out for 2,5 years when she suddenly told me that she wanted to break up. She was unsure about my feelings and didn’t feel loved anymore. I didn’t blame her because it was true, and we broke up then and there. This was maybe two months ago.

Today I feel like I have won at life. I have everything I’ve always wanted - a beautiful daughter and a well paying job. All I want right now is peace and quiet. No alcohol, no drugs and definitely no relationship. My definition of a good evening is some takeout food, candy and video games. All I want to do is to is spend time with my daughter and have a fast car, nothing else is important to me. Since we broke up my biggest problem has been what car to buy this summer.. my personal economy is blossoming and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

But...

Of course I still wanna fuck some girls I have on Snapchat.. how do I deal with that? My plan is to let them come to me.. not throw money, time and resources on them. Or should I just go monk mode? I wouldn’t mind cutting out ‘regular women’ and only fuck pros while on vacation.. maybe that’s the way to go? I feel like prostitutes are the most honest women that exists. They fuck you for the money, they don’t lie or hurt you.

Anyways.. TLDR; this sub has given me a new perspective of life and how it should be. Now it’s time for me to dedicate myself to the cause.