Been a lurker for a couple months, not that ya'll care. What I mean is that I've been reading on TRP and have since learned that I played a huge beta, nice guy my whole life. Nearly George Costanza status. Since then I've swallowed the pill and I've slowly started to change. Yes, I've read most of the sticky links..and I never truly realized how much of a fool I was, essentially from my conditions growing up.

I'm 20 almost 21. I've had two jobs at the same grocery store company, just different locations, as a bagger. We recently hired new baggers, about a few weeks ago. One of them is pretty cute! However, after lurking TRP, I realized how BADLY I was beta'd by my ex for nearly 5 years, I've nearly lost my drive in pursuing. I also had hooked up with co-workers at the other location, and they all broke contracts and were quite immature..I Just never cared anymore, or was too scared. Not anymore.

My fellow dude coworkers would tell me how she's always looking at me/checking me out? when I have my back to her, or when I cant see her doing it. One noticed how she came through my line during her breaks and lunches, when we work together, to buy her stuff, with other available checkstands that had shorter lines. One of my dudes even called me out on it, tellin me I should do something about it...My beta tendencies and roots got the best of me and I replied "I'll think about it...just maybe" and he immediately said "There's nothing to think about" and walked away. That really shook me and made me think.

Anyway I finally overcame my fucking fear. I have hardly showed signs of interest in her, nothing past being friendly. I've been meaning and wanting to give her my number to let her know I want more for about a week so I wanted to act... We both got off at 7 that day, so I had planned to walk her to her car after we both clock out, and exchanging numbers there. Well, 7 hits, and I clock out, but she's not there. After waiting around for just about a minute, I say "fuck it", turn around and start heading out...when, I see her start heading out the store also. Perfect! This couldn't be just coincidence. I couldn't puss out now. So I walk her to her car where we just make small talk about her and my plans, work schedules..When I suddenly just whip it out. I said something like "It was nice talking but I'm hungry and I want to eat. Can I get your number? I think your hella cute". She smiled as soon as I said that, kind of shyly.

So I got her number. I still haven't texted her.

So what does an alpha do here? I got past my recent fears and experiences, got the number...But now where? I'm not sure if I should have texted her or not? Or if I wait for her to possibly text me? I'm sorry guys I've been out of the game for nearly 5 years. And I'm adapting non-beta traits. Thx=)