Guys,

Im in a relationship. I thought it was what i wanted at first. Now shes talking about money and marriage. She's not even a bad person (what what i can see)... i dont think she would cheat or anything. But its all freaking me out too much. I'm about ready to run away. I currently live with her but can't handle worrying about this shit anymore. I moved here (Japan) to make music and have fun... now i'm stuck in this fucking relationship that sucks me dry every day. She's always complaining about stupid shit, always being bitchy... god that bitchy look on her face 90% of the time. She's always looking for new apartments that we can move into together, but if we do we have to sign a 2 year contract. Ahhh i want to escape but im fuckin terrified. I know I will feel depressed when i go. I will feel bad about her when i go. But all i want to do is go and hang with my friends and work on my music. What have i done!?

Sorry... rant over...