It entails a fun filled sex life, full of adventure and danger. Discovery and somewhat closure. Unforgettable memories and exposure.

Growing up I always felt like an outcast, alone, misunderstood. But most of the thoughts and beliefs I held on to were just obfuscated and fabricated lies I let myself and other people feed to me. I had immense hope and that’s how I pulled through.

I thought I was missing out on girls, but man, looking at things right now with eyes fully open, it was just vanity, that almost caused insanity. In fact, getting laid nowadays requires zero skills, just brass balls and strong will.

I don’t know why, but whenever I wanted to slide my dick inside a girl or after the fact that I did, I always felt a little sense of guilt. Religion may have something to do with it. That’s why I’ve been on the fence about this. I’ve got the killer instinct and confidence to do it now, by just hitting on enough girls, but there’s a lot of conflicting and contradictive thoughts going on inside my head.

Yes, I fucking love sex. And if I choose to go down this path, I fear I may get so lost that it’s gonna be hard to find myself again. I’m resisting this a little bit because I know what this lifestyle can do to a guy if he gets too involved.

Fucking a lot of chicks may just be detrimental to my mental and physical health. This shit ain’t for everyone, even if you can do it. Not taking things into perspective could fuck you up.

I just want one loyal, fuckable, down to earth, intelligent, funny girl. Seriously I’ve seen enough shit even though I just took a peek into this not so normal, underground sex community.

I can’t predict the future but I can tell I’ll be one heck of a vacuous bastard if I decide to shove my dick into every girl that stimulates me sexually. And it’s such a shame that nowadays bitches just love this kinda guy. Or one that plays the role well enough for them.

P.S. This isn’t meant to bash on anyone, I’m just making observation on how far I’ve come and what I can see in the near future by doing this. It doesn’t mean that I think this shit is fucked up. We’re all scared and looking for answers.

*wrote this in 2016 before I even knew what the red pill was. I’ve changed so much since then.