I will need advice. I have liked this girl at my school for about a year. She has also told me that she likes me. Last night I asked her if she wanted to kiss but she said she does not hug or kiss and is not ready for a relationship. She said she's going through a lot right now, which I doubt. I'm not going to wait until she's "ready". Our faces were a couple of inches apart once and I felt like I should have done it there but I didn't. I've been feeling regretful because of that. When I went home that night I deleted my Instagram account and removed the few internet friends I had left. I don't have contact with her anymore. I felt like removing everyone from my life.

I am a young MGTOW but have never been in a relationship before or done anything sexual with a girl and I wanted to try it out at least once. I don't think I will ever try it with girls again after this one. I would like to believe that I am not missing out on anything but I want to know how it feels so badly. Please give me some advice like what I should do or if I am doing anything wrong.