I had a friend recommended to just talk and get shit off my chest, I recently broke up with my gf of 8 months sure that isn't a long time but we spent every single day let alone almost every minute together. I really do love her but tonight shortly before I'm choosing to type this we had a blowout resulting in me ending the relationship. I said things I can't take back and she said things she can't take back, during the fight I felt like it was the best decision to let her go. I've been feeling very distant in the relationship the last month or two and I'd have days where I was very happy with her but days where I honestly didn't want to be around her. I love her to the moon and back but I feel like we're just not clicking anymore if that makes sense? the point of me writing this is that now that we're over, I really don't know what to do with myself, after cooling off and letting some anger pass all I feel is regret and sadness, I feel empty and alone, I'm really struggling with moving forward or wanting to move forward. I have no idea where to even start. I feel like in my mind this was going to be easy and due to my anxiety I've played this situation in my head thousands of times but I'm having a very hard time accepting the harsh reality of the situation. I know for a fact that shes gone for good this time and that feeling really sucks. I really have no idea what to do from this point forward.