So....I've been viewing and posting on this sub for 2 years now. From my posts, you can tell that I'm happy and an energetic person but I have been experiencing some hardships in my life. I've been growing more isolated from people and resorting to just staying in my room and playing video games all day. Sure, it's fun to play video games but I did it to the point where I never wanted anything to do with my family or friends or anyone in the world to be exact. Personally, I never enjoyed going out with other people even as a kid because it gets ruined by constant drama over nothing and even now I don't want to do anything with others like go on a vacation or go out to eat. I live with a mother that puts me down and constantly nags me for making small mistakes and I think that's why I have self-esteem issues and OCD sometimes. I noticed that I tend to hold grudges when someone yells or screams at me and it's not healthy. It's gotten so bad that recently I deleted a friend on discord for doing the exact same thing to me. Usually, I can handle it pretty well but my emotional side gets the best of me because usually, I am a very kind-hearted person but I am good at controlling my feelings. I'm trying my best to work on my self-esteem but I'm not so sure if I can ever get over my OCD. I want to live a very promising life and be happy on my own terms. However, if I don't get my emotions in check and stop growing depressed I might not be able to enjoy life at all. Any advice would be good.