Can you imagine being this asleep at the wheel of your life?

A year or so a go I met a pretty but very shy girl on tinder, we dated, got along and then struck up a casual sexual relationship. We both had stressful jobs with long hours and just used each other to have aggressive "stress" sex as she called it. One day she messaged me at 1 AM, she told she was very turned on and wanted me to come over. Now I am a man, if a pretty girl asks me for sex I am going to pathetically come running. So up I got, had a quick shower and cycled through a wet and cold London night to her apartment (I wasn't going to pay the £35 or so for an Uber). Once I arrived she just wanted to fuck, she apparently had a massive argument with her ex and a long horrible day at work. So we proceeded to have sex, she usually liked it rough and liked a gentle face slap, but that night she asked me to do it harder, then harder and then even harder. Her face was red and she was very evidently liking it but I was nervous, I enjoy rough sex but I was hitting her rather hard and I didn't want to bruise her face nor do any damage.

Then she grabbed my head and pulled me down and bit my lip hard and said "fucking hit me", so I did as she asked...

After sex we were cuddling and she said her ears were ringing but she had a great time and she was in a good mood so we showered and went to bed. In the morning she woke me up by shaking me rather hard, the pillow where her head had rested throughout the night had a brown coloured, bloody discharge stain on it and she said she couldn't hear out of her ear.

I was mortified, offered to take her to hospital or that I would spend the day with her to make sure she was alright etc. I was scared there might be worse problems than the suspected burst ear drum and deep down I was scared she might hold it against me.

She went to a doctor and said she had "fallen over" when they asked how it happened, we stopped talking a while after that and she got a boyfriend. Fast forward one year and I messaged her to ask how her ear was. She still can't hear out of it and apparently it can't be fixed :( . She was lovely about it all and said it wasn't my fault and that I shouldn't feel guilty which did make me feel a little better.

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Great sex though.

Edit: for clarity I wasn’t aiming for her ear and I don’t think I even hit her ear, I think I still made contact with her cheek. Anyway I still feel awful about it and isn’t something I want to do ever again.

TL;DR I slapped a girl so hard, her ear drum burst and is now deaf in one ear permanently