Striving to become better than I am, has always been my way of life.

I am naturally physical and competitive. I thrive thanks to competition (win or lose), and society benefits from my participation. Integrity is a vital part of my self improvement so my victories must be earned without entitlement. I believe resorting to violence is often a confirmation of inadequacy, it may be a path to temporary victory, but it's not a path to self improvement. The "might makes right" mentality leads to oppression and war; so I have learned to compete and to solve problems and conflicts peacefully, in spite of my momentary and natural urges to be physical, to use my strength for violence. I find merit in my self-control.

As I see it, men thinking and behaving as such, have allowed the world to survive and prosper.

So where do women fit in?

It's not like I haven't tried to understand what a woman's roll in my life could be, but I've never wanted children.. so what else will they offer me? Love? Companionship? Anything I imagine is better than everything they actually are.

At best what a woman has to offer me, is what they have offered everyone else they've ever wanted/liked/used. 50 shades of grey and it's all the same color. That doesn't make it special. Aside from objectifying women, I'm at a loss. And even that's just trading away my resources or time for sex that in the long run doesn't make me a better version of who I already am.

I was 5 the only time I ever fell in love. I won't happen again.

Want to or not, I won't get married.

I'll go my own way.