All my life since I was a five year old I put the female gender on a pedestal. Dont know if it was societal brainwashing or my own nature; I suspect both. I even thought as a kid they were superior to us because of their beauty and was in awe of their feminine nature.

My sex drive has been very healthy and high and my attraction to women followed suit. So when I discovered fapping at the young age of 12 I was doomed not never reach my potential. Fapping to pics then porn obviously ruined my teens and 20s.

Falling in love with a girl fucking derailed me and threw me off like nothing else ever could. So much fucking time and energy spent day dreaming, trying to win them over, how much semen and time wasted fapping to them?

Even on my SR journey how much time wasted on thinking about the experienced women attraction and then later falling for a girl because of it? How much heartache and pain? And all for what? I haven't found true love. It's all been an enormous waste.

Then it hit me if I could live my life over how much would I have accomplished if I focused on my life goals and purpose? My whole life has been wasted because of this bullshit !!

That ended today. Feels like a burden lifted Like I've been unchained. The start of a beautiful new beginning 😎