I don't give a shit about your propoganda on psychedelics. Everybody I know in real life aside from 1-2 people are loaded up on some dumb ass bullshit about acid, shrooms, dmt, etc.

I can't have a real conversation with the beta ass fucks around me because oh those drugs can ruin your life. I can't even mention anything about them because it's not real bro it's all in your head.. it's just chemicals...

Alright. That's fine I realize you want to sit cozy in your paradigm. I'm not here to disturb it. im aware now, I'm hyper aware.

I was a fucking bitch boy for my whole life and it all changed when I sought out spirituality. I had a best friend who spoke to me about tripping and meeting deities who opened his mind and filled the void with meaning. He convinced me so heavily that I tripped my first time with him. He died the next weekend leaving my house. I know why he died. He already maxed out his knowledge and wisdom here. He was a natural born Chad to say the least. Connected to the universe, he even taught me how to game, he just eminated that energy to him. We smoked weed alot together but it took me awhile before I built the courage to trip with him. He had already pryed open the gates of universal knowledge at this point though.

I know now that he died because his journey was complete and he learned too much too quickly from lsd.

I'm only sad I don't get to talk to him now about what I've learned from tripping. I always know he's aware and with me though. I feel him. Even in typing this i feel the goosebumps. His energy.

He was telling me years ago I could change my entire reality. He was a savior to me and i didn't even realize it until he died. I even was one of the sheep telling him he's just a little too far into woohoo territory.

I also saw some weird ass mfs on the internet saying it loud and clear that if you want a taste of the infinite, a vision past the stupid shit everybody is hooked (video games, social media, porn, their jobs, their ambitions) theirs ways to do it.

I wanted an out to my stupid ass pathetic nihilistic view on the world. Who was I to sit back and attempt to view this playground so logically, trying to pick apart the joys, flaws, understand the conflicts, "why are those two holding hands and so happy?" "why are those fighting?"

Why wasn't I just playing along too?

I did some drugs and I did some lsd. I didn't do this shit to laugh and look at the pretty visuals. That's fun but I went within. I meditated and I saw myself attached to the grander image. My friend told me to do it this way to be open in the experience and let it consume me.

I can't wrap this vent up because this is the deepest rabbithole that exists. You have to open your mind to find the out and when you do the other side feels great. Everything I thought about the world flipped. It's all different. I'm different. People like me.

If you're stuck mate. If you feel like an absolute soyboy depressed bitch do some psychedelics. You'll probably go insane, but you'll realize you like being insane. I haven't even done a lot. I was stuck an needed an out. I got it and haven't felt the need in months to come back. And what's crazy is you go in and you want to discover the meaning of life.

If it seems you've gotten lost in your path the most crazy thing is tripping once again and coming back to the meaning of life. You want it try some lsd. You'll get the meaning of life.