M 21.

Today i interacted with a woman at a public place where i needed to be.

Now normally i don't really do that since i follow this subreddit but circumstances made it so.

BIG FUCKING MISTAKE, I knew in my head it was a bad idea, nothing specifically bad happend we just talked about some tv shows but damn when i got home i was pretty tired so i decided to sleep and i got the biggest nightmare ever you know racing heart, sweating.

I haven't had a nightmare in about 5 years mind you and this one definitely had something to do with being safe in a world full of chaos.

and it was exactly like my body and my brain were telling me to never do some fucking shit like that again. First time i'm able to decipher a real nightmare and good to know that stuff warns me at the core of my being so that i know i'm on the right path.

It's an uncomfortable feeling but it's a hell of a warning mechanism.