There are few people on earth that know this story. I usually don't like telling people because I always feel like a fool, and I get sad just by thinking about it. But I really think MGTOW is a good home for this story.

During my second semester of college, I met a girl on move-in day, let's just call her Karen. She was my friend Beth's new roommate, and Beth introduced me. That night we had a double date at a restaurant. I distinctively remember this night because I didn't even care about the girl, I was just mad that the cashier gave my food to someone else. But anyway, the next day she was in my bedroom.

Our relationship grew too fast, since she's a master of manipulation and I never really had a meaningful relationship with a woman before. I just let it roll. We never had protected sex during the few months we were together. I was pulling out every time. However, I came inside her several times. But it was never because I couldn't control it. I was playing the role of a woman I suppose, and we both knew that a baby would force us to always be together in some way, even if we broke up. She suggested it first. She tried to "trap" me, but I was so starved for affection that I was willing.

But for some reason, she never got pregnant even though she missed her period one month. She ended up with a cyst that was really messing up her body instead. She moved back home to her own state when all of this happened, so you don't even know how suspicious I am of her whole story. But of course she was back with her ex boyfriend within the week.

It took distance from her to realize my foolish ways. She was quite literally the only person I associated with for months. We lived in our own delusional world, and once I woke up from that I was filled with grief. I dodged several bullets, but it messed me up anyway. This is the first incident that would set me on the road to MGTOW. (I can provide way more details if requested)