I’m in a long term with the love of my life but started realizing about a year ago how evil I am compared to him. I’m the closest it comes to a unicorn but let me just say although I’m the one percent you can’t change biology. My instincts determine me to be basically trash. Morally that’s how women are if you are basing your morality off of the general 1900s western culture. Which everyone pretends they believe in when it benefits them. What makes me not a hypergamy slut who believes I’m entitled to polygamy and leaches off my bf is wisdom and CHOICE. But in one second I can so easily stop choosing the right thing and act emotionally which is my true nature. I will never cheat physically I can guarantee it. But I’m ashamed to admit I have on an emotional level. Never saying I like him or anything and not talking outside of public but just being emotionally involved to where I know it’s wrong. I still have guilt because I know if my bf felt like that for a girl I’d be really hurt. It’s happened only once and cheating emotionally is Guaranteed from any girl. Not making excuses I’m just saying. I get really sad sometimes I can’t be like a guy. I learn from his example and do what he does but it can only take you so far. I try to redpill my bf in case something happens to me. It sucks cuz he just calls u incels like every basic feminist. Which is funny cuz he is so conservative but blinded by society and pussy STILL. (I don’t leave him because I love him and he says he would kill himself without me. Not to mention the endless pool of cunts a million times worse than myself I’d be throwing him into.) With me I was a Virgin before him and don’t even let guys hug me. I take care of myself for him and don’t talk to other guys ever and have like no friends let alone bitchy friends. I never tell him other guys are cute cuz I only see him and only get off to him when I do. I pay for a good amount of dates and give him good gifts and genuinely love him. So leaving him is just stupid. I’m extremely self aware and beyond truther. It scares me thinking about how the world is with females because I’m so determined and work so hard to go against my biology and I still fail. You guys who aren’t fully MGTOW should be afraid. For those of you who are let me just say ur making the right choice. I fear I’ll just get worse and worse. The patriarchy will rise again and maybe things will be better but for now u were born in the wrong generation. The absolute worst.