I learned to hate my mother. She is the most unempathic, golddiggig, attention whoring person that i know. Some might say shes like all other women but no, she is one of the worst. Shes the kind of person that wants cash and prices and she NEVER ever uses it. My father was nothing but a retarded cuck to her he never ever protected me once from her manipulation, drama or anything at any age. I bet she was cheating on him.

I was having no idea what to do with my life, being so sick. Being trapped i started streaming and everytime i had success with it she would talk it down, talk shit, make me feel bad doing it. She is the most narcissistic person that i know, it was her that refused to pay me any apartment, would no longer pay university or anything. I even saw more success later and when i averaged 40-50 people she would just say YOU HAVE TO TAKE A BREAK, batshit crazy, still trying to control me. I ignore her and the more she gets ignored the crazier she gets. The father just sits there and whiteknights for everything she does like a stupid zombie.

I recently had more success than i thought i could ever have and this gives me a lot of hope. Theres not much else i can do at the moment. The people dont even know im sick. I kept it a secret because i didnt wanted to be seen as the cripple, i also wanted to forget and not think about it all day. She tried to control my life, tell me when to stream and when its not okay, ignoring every aspect of it. When i asked her if she even wants me to succeed she said that i just need my own place while ignoring all aspects of that. Do i look like im doing this, staying at fucking home because i WANT it? Even that someone that sick could have success, she wouldnt even think one second about her fucking actions. She would slowly pour acid onto you, trying anything to manipulate you and make you feel worse for what you are doing.

Being in this enviroment with her is hell, she is toxic, she fucked up everyone badly. I have tried to find anything in the past year and its hard with my condition to be accepted by any fucking landlord or person. Often they just give the apartment to the person thats working fulltime. She just says im not doing it right and other retarded shit, there are million with the same problem and its no fucking joke. Goverment money is a fucking joke and its not nearly enough.

I wont lie recently i had a daydream that she died and i was happy as fuck. I lived alone for the past 8 years and this is hell. Shes is such an abusive person that i often hope something happens to her, it's an absolute mess to be at home but if you really have no choice and tryed all options...People will always judge it like i didnt try hard enough. With my condition most buildings will make me sicker and within hours/days im bedbound 24/7. Friends saw how i lived in a tent and then they believed me.

Meanwhile im getting treated like a normal person without any issues because im streaming. Now im apparently healthy. Because i found something that i can do. Fuck her. Fuck her fucking mind, her fucking disgusting personality, fuck her secret cheating with the "yoga club", fuck her opinion, fuck anything she says. She should be happy for me. She should support that im having success. Its fucking disgusting, she is a subhuman that should not have any money.

She works as a "life coach" and the women that call are so fucking lost and get advice from someone that is even more lost. With every year of feminism her behaviour got worse. If i was my father i would have shot myself. I would never have believed that it is possible to be that toxic, demanding and crazy. Im looking for a way out, daily.