Hey follow MGTOWers, i suffer from lyme disease and i never fully recovered. Im basically shift from bad to okay and i endured a lot of bullshit from people that made me go MGTOW before i knew about it. Despite being a tall goodlooking guy i tell you nothing triggers AWALT more than being sick. But fuck that. Not my concern anymore.

I studied but was too sick to continue.

I was a musician all along but being able to play live was always stressful, let alone finding bandmates that would be reliable was a pain in the ass although the music was pretty good, people like it. I had my times but i never seemed to endure the high points long enough. It was hard to continue with a band all the time.

Right now im in a crisis and im thinking what the fuck can i do with my life. I also started streaming on twitch and average about 10-20 viewers, on good days i make 30-40 followers and have 30-40 viewers.... and even that is not easy with my health, i get tired easy although im good and the people enjoy it i sometimes have a hard time to entertain people when im feeling bad or tired in general. I made some money there with donations, more than some female streamers.

So in short everything seems like a waste of time to me. I feel i try too hard for my state of health. All of this sucks. I'm often too sick but when im feeling good i feel like i can make it. I currently live on welfare and living in poverty sucks aswell, i wanna sustain myself. This is a catch22 situation it seems not sure if someone can relate.