I probably have terrible genes and nature probably didnt even intend for my parents to reproduce. I just look at women, get really horny, jerk off to the thought of me being their slave and rimming them out. i have had 4-5 hot women in the past, the ones that i picked up in the club but that was 1 year ago. My previous gf was good too but i illtreated her pretty badly and she left. There is only so much a person can bear. I am finally taking better and taking help from a psychiatrist and a psychologist and they have atleast made me less suicidal which is good. I jerk off at least 4 times a day and cant get out of the house.