Guys by the looks of my post these recent days i admit I was the “Blue pill simp” my whole life after my first relationship and realizing women’s actual hearts in relationships. I am so angry at myself and the world for portraying relationships in a false way and I am so mad at myself I wasted a year of my life building a life style around a female my age whom really didn’t care about me one bit. The LEGO pieces were stacked so high I felt like I was bill gates making millions of dollars a year. After she left that LEGO stack that was built so high it came down crumbling taking me back to last year. I got to phase 4 of my life in 4 months everything going well for the rest of the year I got to phase 5 the last month of our relationship now I’m all the way back at phase 0 living with my mother with no job and I’m in debt with no car or apartment now. MGTOW I Am so angry I do not know how to let this anger go and I attempted suicide 7 days ago but all that happen was I was caughing blood. I am so angry because I do not have any hobbies & lost all my friends that I worked with bc my ex worked there and I am in this hole I put myself in bc the imaginary “SHES THE ONE” bullshit fantasy and I am so fucked up in the head Bc everything I once believed in growing up was BULLSHIT