Hey Guys,

Not really sure what I am after here but I feel like I am in a bit of a funk... not depressed or anything.

Since coming to terms with pursuing this lifestyle or at least no live in gfs, I have found myself wondering "OK...so now what?". Got the career and feel a bit trapped by it but also the money gives me less stress in other areas. I am 32 almost 33. I know going your own way means something rather individualistic but the purpose of what my life should be about is escaping me. Friends are moving on with life and I am second guessing if I made the right choice. I am aware of the financial minefield I avoiding but still I wonder.

I work in health science so I already help people. Did the military previous to that but life now just seems repetitive and bland. I pursue my hobbies: shooting, surfing and body building etc but something feels missing. Maybe I am over thinking things but I really want to be excited or have a new chapter that I did all this hard work and sacrifice for. Any input would be great. I realize it is up to me to find purpose and I thought the path I was taking gave it to me but now I am not sure...