I am totally tired of this life and dont know what else to do now. I dont care if i live

ck_1991 · 2018-04-30T15:30:45+00:00

I am sort of in the same boat as you and honestly that feeling of helplessness is the worst. I already tried the suicide thing, didn't work for me(attempted but didn't die) infact things got even worse after that. I am fucked, my life is fucked and there is no escape. I can't even find a good job, if I did I would get the fuck out of this hell hole.

Ohboohoolittlegirl · 2018-04-30T15:32:34+00:00

Go your own way. As someone who was raised by a narcissistic BPD mom, please refrain from having kids, or do it with serious guidance..other than that.. do whatever the fuck you want to.. Just remember, cohabitation, kids and marriage are a big fucking risk to the sanctuary of your mind

2018-04-30T15:35:02+00:00

If you are female, no problem. If you are male, big problem. Get professional help. I’m serious. Disassociation and self harm is serious. And there is help out there. Enough of it.

ThisIsSevenOfSwords · 2018-04-30T16:13:24+00:00

Drink between 2 and 4 liters of water a day. Some days may be more difficult than others, but make it a goal to get at least 2 down, then work on 4 when you feel comfortable enough about that.
Start reading some existentialist philosophy and maybe even the most radical Skeptics you can find. Go down the deepest, darkest rabbit holes as possible. Check out: Sartre, Kierkegaard, Nietzsche, Camus, Buber, and Sextus Empiricus.
Try to eat three balanced meals a day. Given your heart condition, do not try to over-eat by making yourself extra meals as this could have more adverse health consequences.
Consider some Buddhist philosophy as a way of dealing with stress. Meditation can assist with calming as well as thinking about your experiences that make you stress. I find that medication is often times over diagnosed and that psychologists are just frauds. Do not take any meds for anything. If you feel yourself become anxious, or angry, simply let yourself know that you are feeling this way and start to analyze what it feels like and recognize that you are feeling that way.
Reflect on the relationship that you have had with your parents. This may seem to be frightening at first, but in order to recognize where your traumas are, you must recognize from which thy came. This will seem schizo phrenic at first because you will remember the good times and the bad times with them as well. Perhaps there is more bad than good? Then recognize it. Perhaps you cannot tell? Then recognize that as well.
Realize what you like about life and what you want. Not what your father put in your head as child to make you want. Not what society wants you to want. Not what the bourgeoise pigs want you to want. You. Analyze what it is that you want. This may take several years or even a life time, but making yourself the active agent in this world can make you see the issues with the conditions of which you were born into. Consider reading some Karl Marx or Antonio Gramsci.

secant128 · 2018-04-30T16:28:53+00:00

Focus on taking care of yourself first. Focus on yourself. I don't like to quote JBP but "sort yourself out". When you have done that and you are independent and self reliant, then everything else is extra that you can do for your own interest and happiness. Focus on your hobby and interests, etc.

caem123 · 2018-04-30T16:40:33+00:00

Cutting yourself and BPD are typically claimed by women. Especially, a 'diagnosis' for BPD is rarely stated by a man. I'm skeptical this was posted by a man.

NietzscheExplosion · 2018-04-30T16:51:53+00:00

This is a threshold moment. You are looking for solutions based on fear, when in fact you are in a unique position to be completely fearless .

Step through.

2018-04-30T15:39:43+00:00

You can't control the past, it's done. Try to give it a place and accept it the way it is. You can only focus on the future and what happens now. It takes a long time before you can see changes, but you have to see it to believe it. Try to make small steps each day consistently and when you see progress it will motivate you. If you throw enough shit on the wall, eventually some will eventually stick.

Put effort on positive thinking, the negatively will drain your soul. I suggest you do a lot of reading about borderline, you have to learn as much about yourself and your patterns of behaviour and thinking as possible. Perhaps read into Neuro Linguistic programming. At least do something about your problems. Only complaining doesn't help, it comes with continuing effort, perseverance, dedication and sacrifice.

2018-04-30T15:41:18+00:00

Get medical help and/or therapy. You have some serious issues there and you need help with them.

georgesoyros · 2018-04-30T15:44:53+00:00

I hear ya. I'm also tired of this life. The only thing that keeps me alive is my faith in God and realizing that this life is only temporary.

I'm not going to preach here, because everyone has the ability to look things like this up for themselves. Some more practical advice:

You might want to check out this book. I'm quite critical when it comes to these kind of books, but this one has 'opened my eyes' a bit when it comes to parents.

HorusEyeDrops · 2018-04-30T17:19:54+00:00

Before you consider exiting this life early, maybe see if you can't wring any more lemon juice out of Life's lemons. Ik depression sucks the energy and clear thinking out of you, but force yourself to put yourself on an adventurous limb. Pick a direction, and drive. Blindly pick a restaurant with food you've never imagined. Go skinny dive a public river at night.

If you're about to exit the world, just like you do when say campaign has been raped a hundred times of Skyrim, go and explore the rest of the sandbox world. Your emotions will reward you for exploring, and blah blah, essentially filling your Mavlovian needs!

You've been given God of War 4 as a simulation to live, don't exit the game because it looks bleak at the moment, there's exciting shit that's yours for the taking.

wandering468 · 2018-04-30T17:30:46+00:00

take that personality disorder put it in order and take advantage from it .

Title	I am totally tired of this life and dont know what else to do now. I dont care if i live
Author	strike123mgtow
Upvotes	8
Comments	14
Date	April 30, 2018 3:12 PM UTC (8 years ago)
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