Okay,

This is a journal to get some perspective on how I devolved from RedPill to PurplePill and eventually broke it off with a plate.

May it be a good read for you, filled with wisdom and more importantly things to watch out for!

Pre-Fucking-Amble

Swiped this girl on Tinder, we decided to meet on Friday. She's super into me, so I go with the flow.

Unprotected Night

Friday comes and we hit an Italian restaurant (since she's partly Italian), and also I'm a sensitive cunt. We hit it off well... as well as an HB9 can perform discussion and mental wise. I don't care though, cause she's hot. We drive around, I take her to a scenic place and then I tell her the ol'let's hang out at my place.

Cut the story short, we end up having sex (no surprise). I'm horny as fuck and usually fall for this, I penetrate without a condom and promise myself to wear one after a few minutes...

Right when I'm about to cum, I pull out and cum on her (hi5! No). She spends the night at my place and I drop her at hers at the am.

Mini Freak Out

I freaked out a little in case she got some sperm from me during intercourse but she promised she had an IUD (I googled IED first as I misheard and I'm sure I'm on some list now xP). I promised myself I'd wear a condom next time..

I plated her, not giving a damn and focusing on myself and what I wanted to do. Of course she obsesses even more about me.

Unprotected Plus Cum Inside Night

The second date happened a few days later as she couldn’t wait (high SMV does pay off lads). We eat, hangout and bang. This time I cum inside of her... I don't know if I facepalmed while I was cumming or my stupidity lasted till I went to clean up in the bathroom.

The Descent to PurplePill

I started being extra nice to her just to last the relationship until I could dump her by her next period as she started to dump all her drama/negativity/shit-tests on me. This is where I started to devolve although I did deflect all her shit tests, I still was nice just to make it last and I had this paranoid fear that she would black mail me with a fake pregnancy…. She didn’t. I took this is a measure of trust so I opened even more to her and started prioritizing her….

I’ll give you a second to facepalm and say “noooooo you fuck face!” Yes yes I know -.-

I Prioritize PurplePill Style

I basically say YES to everything without crossing my limits and boundaries. That of course wasn’t enough to stay RedPill as I made myself more than available to her. It first started as a mitigation technique to make it last till her next period, until I found myself not noticing the difference between my former evolved self and the programmed mangina that I had devolved too. I felt like I was literally fighting a three front battle, against her female nature, my male subservient nature and of course my cock. By this time I had stopped fapping ( I do it without porn to relieve the “naïve idealistic believer coach” – bill burr).

Skip to the Breakup

When you become too available and PurplePill the breakup is imminent (AWALT, AWALT, AWALT). Girls almost never initiate a breakup, they choke the relationship by being distant and cold in order for the man to back out (after all my expenses, time and effort dedicated. Good let the pain mold me back to TheRedPill. It hurts but its fulfilling!)

I was smart about it. I offered her a week long pause, to think her “shit-tests” and “distancing” through. She responds by asking me to “end it” (of course, but at least I got her a-ok, for what I’m about to unleash on her). I ask her if she’s sure as we promised each other to never call it quits and believe in growth (oops, I thought the genders were equal here and resilient…. Oh noooooooooooooo! Fuck you mangina! Sorry. Talking to my inner magina).

Post Breakup Day 1

First day is hard. It’s basically habits even if she is as dramatic/negative as they come. I hit the gym, listen to some angry rock and make the best of my day. I’m more angry at myself for slipping so easily. Although I must admit the three front battle was new to me. Also learned to never never never not wear CONDOMS! 0.0.

Post Breakup Day 2+

This second day I woke with a light feeling in me. I stretched in my California-King bed and got that sense of freedom I previously had. I’m free! Loaded and grateful! Her unloading her shitty perspective and pessimism on the daily, quickly made me forget the awesomeness of my life!

My mojo is back! I’m very social and connected online and I’m what you’d call between “Tony-Stark” and “Deadpool” in terms of personality and sexiness. The ladies were all wondering where I’ve been all this time.

Post Breakup SMV Restoration

All well is good but I was still angry at myself. She can’t beat her nature, but I the man, have slipped by ignoring the details. I book a trip to LA and Vegas, get a very exotic sports car, helicopter rides and the whole 9-yards. Of course I share this through my comical lens and line up pussy for at least 4-5 months (I rarely go on dates, but use girls’ interest in me to keep my SMV in check, as SMV as an objective metric is very healthy for a man. Reminder, SMV: Personality, Money/Career, Aesthetics and Social Status).

She of course is watching all of this, I monitor my social networks viewership through legal and shady means. Yes, I’m good at technology.

Her sister, texts me that she wants to talk again (the bitch is too proud to talk to me). I don’t respond. The story is ongoing as I like to live it up and make sure the sluts know it ( all my high-SMV friends are grounded but we add gloss for the ladies as well as cover each other’s backs (filming each other and whoring ourselves out basically ;)). Tip: Always stay real with your man homies).

Ongoing

I’ll update this story when she eventually comes crawling back. Her sister is hinting that she’s interested! Time to go for the combo-family brochette! Ouuuuu, yes I still hold grudges! (don’t judge 0.0)

Lessons Learned

  • Don’t fuck without a condom or do anything that will compromise your power/independence.
  • Watch the fucking slipup! Power at the top of the mountain, that requires consistent balance and zen
  • Just compartmentalize men friendships vs women parenting (different skills/approaches. Mangina men aren’t even considered to exist here).
  • Make sure you’re always fapping/banging to stay as objective as possible and keep your cock from ruling you (hint: it loves the mangina in you!).
  • Stay tuned with TRP material (add MGTOW for good measure). Yes, a lot of angry people but, it’s the system that’s fooled us by denying us the truths of our species’ nature.
  • Watch out for ONE-ITIS. The clam looks like my nanny which I took as a sign that she’s the “”one”” (please facepalm and slap me at least four times).
  • Most girls aren't interested in relationships where there's equality. The are other subservient to you or you are.
  • They all got raped, anxiety attacks, <add bullshit weakness here> to feel sorry for them and let your guards down. Ignore, Ignore, Ignore.