She came back from work one night and i had reserve a weekend at an exclusive spa massage up north of Montreal....... cost 420$.

We where an active couple and we did so much together, had a beautiful house, never had kids but we never stayed home.

I had reserve this weekend because i felt our couple was slipping and i wanted us to get closer..... little did i know that for 2 months she had fallen in love with one of her co workers, putting on makeup in the morning and talking a lot about that man to my face.....

She told me she never really loved me and she wanted to keep the house, since we where never married she had to give me 110k to keep it, she never tough about anything, all we been trough together ok sell the house and that's it.

I took the time to grief, i sent her an email poring my heart to her, telling her i could not believe she could act like this after i help her find a job, supported her when time of needs and more..... she told me it was the last time she would reply to me, that she told me everything when she broke up with me and to stop bothering her.

I grieve like i had lost a love one, i wanted to end my life, worst i had to move in with my mother and grand mother that gave me a hard time for 10 months.....

I still believe in love and i still believe there was someone out there for me , after all my ex bitch was very special, and i pity her so much.... look where it got me.....

I all those years i met a few women, i got introduce to some women, wanted to plan dates with them, but they where very independent, one was older them me at 45 she was really normal looking but she kept going out with her friends and we never ended up meeting, she told me she did not know what she wanted.... 45......

Then i went online and i saw the truth, how many single mother of 2 where on there.......and how there minds where so screwed up...... there expectations. And how online dating can destroy a man just by sending tones of emails, reading profiles, having affinities with the person and getting replied back that she is not attracted to your picture.......

This is where i slowly started to read about women psychology, the rational male book help me understand how those women think.... i read a few alpha male books that explained how women are wired......

The more women i met, the more women i talk too the more i was slowly losing interest, there conversation where stupid and more.

2 years ago i met this blond girl at my job, she told my friend that i was hot, she was also 45 but look good for her age and she seemed nice, we started talking via facebook and it took her 1 month before she told me she had a boyfriend...... i was such a sims blue pill back then that i played along and she friendzone me, she was using me to get attention, or when she was working or her boyfriend was not there he was a trucker, she would have endless chats with me, but we never got to go out, she always flaked at that point.

Until i got tired of that shit, and i was starting to change, i was realizing how women where, and how they used and abused men...... one day about 8 months ago, she got a hold of me and she said you have change we used to chat and have so much fun.... now her boyfriend broke up with her, and she was desperate to finding another man.....

This is where i told her i was not her emotional tampon and i could care less about her stupid love life..... she does not speak to me anymore..... because i found out the truth....

The truth will set you free, but the truth is very very hard to accept...... now that i learned this truth little by little i stop chasing women..... and now they annoy me more then they excite me.

Making the switch to MGTOW requires men to get burned, some will get burned once but some sadly will never learn.....