Well I come here finally from Paul Joseph Watson. Never been the alpha male, though always been the kind and helpful fellow. Though my last relationship I had almost two years ago got me to realize in that time I was just useless and undesired as all the others left me for an older man/woman. During that time and now I have been in conflict in myself. One side to submit and kneel to find love some how on pleasing, and well to stand once more after years of being screwed over and told I was just a useless thing to women. I fight harder now to get out of the depression, and "propoganda" I lead myself to be. Just the thing is to fully let go of the cringeworthy 2014 and 2015.

Edit 1: I didn't mean to come off as needy, or a troll. I come for well genuine help. Mainly regarding well taking the leap. To be at peace once more, and get out of my head the "it's always been my fault" mentality