Because now I no longer need to worry, panic or stress out about whether I have sex or not. Of course I used a condom (I'm not willing to test what it feels like without one!) and it felt like putting a plastic bag over my penis and putting it in a hole. I couldn't cum from it at all and got flaccid less than ten minutes in and ended up cumming from a handjob, whilst thinking during the handjob that I could have done it better myself! The girl could have easily passed for an amateur porno and looked like a porn girl when naked. Last year I brought a fleshlight and I was bitterly disappointed. Now I am thinking about how good the fleshlight was in comparison! I was panicking for over a month that I'd die a virgin if the UK ended up changing the prostitution laws so that buying sex was illegal but selling it wasn't. Now I don't give a shit as long as it protects the forced women or those who are abused etc. The sense of relief knowing that I don't need to worry about this is reassuring to say the least and takes a lot of weight off my shoulders. The great thing now is that I can move on and forget about women. I don't need to fall for one because I know how bland they really are to touch and feel. Touching her breasts, butt, everything just felt so lame in comparison to how my hormones had led me to believe, it really is quite shocking to be honest! The truth is (for myself and maybe I do have errectile dysfunction, porn and masturbation addiction) masturbating gives me powerful orgasms and ejaculations and is enough to get me by :D