I can be an outspoken MGTOW and say whatever is in my mind, but if I do that I'll be attacked for my views, so I need to conform if I want to stay employed.

That being said, when I conform, I have caught myself lying so much that I start to believe my lies.

By conforming all the time, I get into the habit of lying so much that my lies become my truth, and fakeness becomes my reality.

Does anyone else feel this way? Do you ever feel exhausted acting all the time? Are you tired of constantly switching masks?