It's something I've never seen discussed on this sub, and yet it provides astonishing insight into the female mind.

I'm talking about "The black book". You see all women carry around with them this proverbial black book. A record is made of any mistakes you make as you go through life with this woman.

Given that humans are fallible, evolving, growing and experiencing life. Only a corpse or someone in a coma doesn't make mistakes, yet yours will be recorded.

Anything from the mundane to some of your more serious fuckups will get a listing in that book, and whoa to you, at any given argument, chapter, page and paragraph will be quoted.

And there is nothing you can do to change this or prevent it. It's just part of the female mindset, she thinks it's completely appropriate to constantly remind you of a life of fuckups. Because let's face it, if you don't make at least 1 mistake every day, you're not breathing.

Even a seemingly small argument can quickly turn. You'll be quoted reams of shit you did 10 or 20 years ago, and they never forget or let the shit go.

Now, there are things you absolutely did, eg: I once bought a computer for the price of a good used car (I will add with my own money) and even in the final weeks prior to divorce with my ex wife, in her mind this was some massive mistake on my part and she still felt the need to bring this up. 7 years later. I can't remember the exact argument but even that was unrelated.

But then there is shit you didn't do. Like when we were newly wed, 2-3 months in. We had our first big argument, so I told her "Well if you don't like it, you're welcome to leave, there's the door". She in return contacted a friend of mine, and told him I kicked her out the house. She put on this huge show and parade with a suitcase and "no place to go". He being a blue pilled cunt, did not even bother to get my side of the story, but now I'm going off track. Once we reconciled I tried to explain that whatever happened was heat of the moment and I didn't really want her to actually leave. But the record she wrote in the book, the one she brought up over the next 10 years, and the one her female friends fucking years later got to hear was "I kicked her out the house with no place to go". And that was that, signed and sealed in cement.

And it can be overwhelming for a young man, who perhaps even has some confidence issues having this gorilla on your back constantly reminding you of your failures. It is the one thing I like about MGTOW, that black book is now a distant memory.

Anyone with similar experiences?