Nobody told me that going my own way would be this straining. At one point I want to “soil my Royal oats” me being my age. Not wanting to use age as an excuse but being 21 is a factor that I have to consider when doing my own thing. On the other hand I’ve seen and still see the manipulative ways of women yet my biology makes me feel like a raging bull in a cage. Then on top of that I got the big immunodeficiency from my mom so now it’s just like, WTF!!!