Ive worked hard most of my life in various ways, like most men. Im a fairly good looking guy, almost 6 foot make 100k a year, 29. Ive slept with many attractive women, two in the last month, just after dumping another attractive one who was invariably mentally unstable. She caused immense turmoil.

Tonight i was watching a movie, a disaster movie where a family goes on vacation. They are obviously successful and have 3 sons. While watching the beginning before the disaster hits, i looked at them and said "ah, the fantasy". I would of loved to had a wife and a boy or two; something that doesn't seem crazy. Something that shouls be reasonably attainable; but its not.

Im about to start my first real business in the goal of having a large income stream by my mid 30s. But it still burns me slightly to know in many ways i can be considered a top 20% man already, but it makes no difference in the female department other than getting laid a bit more, trust me.

As i look at my last shattered relationship with a clearly disordered woman, then two more attractive women who fuck me but dont want anything "long term", i realize its a pretty pointless endeavor to try to have a family. Even if a female "lowers" herself to me, odds are shes probably bat shit crazy anyway.