I'm controlled by an ex. She has the full backing of the courts and men with guns of society(police). Anytime I don't do what she wants, she threatens court, police, and anything else. I have PTSD from all this shit she put me through simply because I'm the father of her child. I cannot function properly, nor have the motivation for anything anymore.

No court agreement will ever be enforced. I was fleeced by two lawyers of my life's savings. For a useless unenforceable court order, no one gives a shit. Why bother?

I guess my point here is a big fuck you to society. I hate the United States of America. I hate hate hate most of the people who live here, and I hate this dead end lifestyle. I hate how I put so much effort into being successful while young, to just be used up, chewed up, swallowed and shit out.

But thanks to you guys, I know how to leave. I promise, once I do - I'll make a guide to leaving this behind and starting a life overseas. All I hear is great things about leaving, and how much better it can actually be. I suppose I could try that before killing myself.

Surely, many men live quiet lives of stress, anxiety, and desperation. I haven't even been screwed half as bad like so many stories I read about, and yet here I am at the breaking point. I wish you all well.