Im glad that i found the MGTOW videos online and that helped me to get a deeper understanding of women and people in general. It was totally what i needed.

To make the long story short i have a life threatening illness and my mother does not care one bit about it. In a week in can change from charismatic, energetic and fit to bedbound, fatigued, sleeping all day, in pain plus a lot of mental confusion. All she cares about is the money and that im soon "gone from the house" - whenever shes angry she trys to shame me, put me down. it became so bad that she even cancled my university behind my back while i was far away. What a terrible person.

My father is quite the same he is a beta that i despise he never tryed to protect me he always tryed to follow my stupid mother. He is below beta in my eyes he never speaks for himself. All he cares about is my mum. If he asks me anything or wants something 99% of the time its because my mother freaked the fuck out about some bullshit. When i had a succesful rock n roll band he didnt even show up once.

I still had to move back to my parents because im broke from the expenses. There was NO other choice. Before that i lived at friends for over 8 months. Trust me i would have done anything to avoid it.

I currently have no college degree and my education is like so many in this situation - wasted. But to be honest its already too late. I need to do something else. If you wanna know what it is check this link: http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2016/08/13/under-our-skin-lyme-disease-2.aspx

Im smart and i dont think i really need a degree to succeed in life. But i realized in the last years that i wont make it anywhere unless i fix my health. So i focussed on that and made gains where others tryed to push their bodies through work too and some of them are DEAD now. Others suffer a lot more then me because of their bad decisions.

I gathered many tools and was able to help many friends and family members with health issues. Ironically they always come to me for health but ignore or try to shame me in the long run if i dont fit their criteria. So i decided not to help them anymore because this destroyed me few years ago. Because of my knowledge im not as bad as other people with lyme disease that i know.

If you have to move back - after 12 years, yes sir i moved out with 18... youre pretty confused because somehow life didnt work out the way it should yet. Im okay with that i accept that now. People pushed their agendas all my in my entire 20s and i tryed to prove anyone that my health is not as important.

I experienced hypergamy because of my health like no one else with my age. Im good looking (not too good tho) and i had three girlfriends leave me because im basically having these issues. They even admitted it. After these women i was already MGTOW/TRP without even KNOWING it because i said no more fucking relations for me and it STAYED (!) that way for already 3 years now.

Recently i made a mistake. I had a secret plan to move to another city - a good week before that i planned all my protocols, detoxes and tools quite perfectly so when i came there i had good energy. But sometimes you get so sick you seriously just want to go home. I hate the push throughs they make you feel dead and exhaust you. So gladly i avoided this through experience.... and when i came back i had a good time and told my parents about it like a little kid. I was excited and pumped. I told them about it and that was a big mistake. On the other hand i didnt have a choice because they wondered where i would go anyway.

So my mother then came to me telling me to leave from 17th till 30th - i was like what the fuck? Are you kidding me? She said she does not want me at home when shes on holiday. When i asked her why she didnt reply except that i would "ruin the house" aka shame me (total utter stupid lie, she just destroyed my mixer because shes unable to think clear). My retarded mangina dad does not even think about it. He just follows her and does not really think about it. Such a wimp and loser for me. He never protected me in sickness. Its beyond fucked up to even try all that stuff and trying to put me down with stupid shaming stuff while its all about my health. Its my life, decision. My mother does not get that. Shes a fucking narcissist in hiding. She often plays it nice when she wants something from me (aka health tips or help with tech) ... she then said i "have nothing to say in this house" and shut the door like some mad italian hooker.

For the first time i was able to hold my frame very strongly and i simply said that its my decision and my life and thats it. She tryed to shame me more and told me that she will not even allow me here to eat (see how fucked up she is...) and that im disgusting.

I didnt give a fuck that night and it felt awesome. I felt that i had my power. My life. My power. My choice. Women have really lost it in this generation, no question about that.