I'm writing this at the moment that this came to my mind, so forgive me if it is a bit convoluted. I was reading about how many are being victims from women and they end up getting a pass, and how many are being falsely accused by women of crimes that they didn't commit, and some blocked bad remembrance ended up coming up. It happened similar with me. With my mother.

I was evicted from home at 23 (I am 35 now). I know. It is enough to be paid enough to live by my own. We can discuss the loser I was/am on another moment.

So, what happened was that her current husband (which, ironically, I keep contact to this day) came in when I was alone at home. He had a message from her. She asked me to leave. Our fights were becoming unbearable (I agree). "I'm sorry to say that. Will you need any help?". I asked for a month and left.

Fast forward to 7 years. I am 30. Everything was not that bad. I haven't graduated, but job wasn't a problem and kinda could choose where to work (and that was kind the exact reason I dropped college), and living in a not so bad area of the city (could not say the same about the building). I was having lunch with her husband. He talk about me leaving home and how do I look much better now (interesting how many people was saying that just a few months after I was living alone). He lets something slip. He says her decision was reasonable, cause if not, I could end up attacking her with a knife or something.

W.

T.

F???

I ask for clarification, but I already now what I am about to hear. She was worried that I was becoming more and more upset about her moving on my things in my room. "With so many things to say about me, she end up with one that has zero base on reality, and you believed, huh?". And he goes on rationalizing, saying that people can just become angry and something bad. I can't remember how many times I was saying the portuguese equivalent of "bullshit". I wasn't angry. I was sad. Terribly sad. I went silent. We paid our meal, he wished me luck on my new job, I said thanks and went on my way. He later wrote me, saying that he might feel that he said a few things that shouldn't, but I never was mad of him.

What made me most sad on this was how absurd it was. I was the victim of violence from her. I was hit with a stick when I was entering in the bath while she was screaming with me at 11. At 14 I had long hair, and she pulled it from behind when I turned my back to her during another discussion. She used to say that she was going to cut it when I was sleeping. She also said "You are gonna regret if something happens to my mother". My sin? Visit grandma on business days without announcing.

Fast forward a few more years, until last year. I am 34, living in another city. I go visit him with my current beautiful girlfriend. We are going to say on his apartment during a long holyday, while they go on a trip. She is there. While I talk to him, my girl is with her in another room.

As if the irony of my greatest savior in my life being the husband of my mother with whom I have zero contact, here comes more: my girl loved her. She talked to me how she told her that she never hit me-

*sigh*

Really? So, after 15 years with no contact with this woman, among so many things she has to talk in less than one hour, she chooses a lie. That lie. She even told it deliberatly. My girl didn't even ask about it! Yeah, this time I was furious. Se believed her, rationalized that it wasn't that bad, she was mother, blablabla.

To this day, many, if not all my family, don't know or do not believe that she evitcted me or ever hit me. They say about how I am being crazy again for saying that, how as I always ways. Yeah, of course I was. She was screaming on me for an open toothpaste for christ sake! It is funny how peaceful people consider me to this day, "a zen master".

When I see men avoiding women on all aspects of their lives, and even keeping to a minimum at casual contexts (jog colleagues, etc), I am always thinking "something terrilby bad happened to this guy come to that point". When I bring back those memories, this makes more sense. Sometime I am affraid what that snake might be whispering on everyone else ears about me. She had the audacity to lie about violence in less than one hour when talking with someone that her met for the first time, on a topic that she wasn't even asked for. She didn't even have to bring it. And she did.

Anyway, she is just a con artist that I don't need to have contact anymore. I am not looking for responsibles, but trying to understand the context of my life so I can better understand myself. I also believe sharing helps to heal, so, thanks for reading that.

What I would like to know is if there is someone that had similar experiences with her own mother.