You can't both love and understand the opposite sex,the whole desirability of them is in the mystique and fascination.My overly sentimental english teacher believes in soul mates (yuck) but how could you be sure of that if you haven't met everyone.Millions of different people could make you feel the same way, there's nothing special about them just like everyone else.In august I had really bad time getting over a crush in which I was infatuated with .I promised myself if I ever did get over the person I would never need to get attached to anyone again

With emotions being as fickle as they are It took me a couple of weeks to get over them (you know the heart clenching pain). This being quite a hard time in which I lost quite a bit of weight because of lack of appetite (sadness is strange),I thought how absurd for one person to have so much control over the way you feel just by them being them selves and thought it was the best option to abstain relationships. Fuck some people kill themselves when someone rejects or dumps them when if they had held on, they would of gotten over it in a little while, delete them off your contacts and it will soon pass and get rid of their photos( should of thought of that

Then in september I discovered MGTOW and thought wow other people feel the same way as me as the absurdity of relationships maybe this is an unconscious shift in society that thanks to the internet is making people aware there is nothing wrong for disliking sex and relationships.

Remember its not the actual person your in love with, its the way they make you feel, if you loved the person you wouldn't be depressed when they told you straight they loved someone else and you would be happy for them.

I want to finish with my favourite quote about infatuation from alex garland

“When you develop an infatuation for someone you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn’t need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that’s just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up"